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Saturday, 03 April 2010

  • Life is too short.

      I might be taking a break for a while.

    Around 12:30am April 2, 2010, two of my friends were walking when they were hit by a car. One died instantly while the other one had serious injuries and died not too long after that.

    I spent all day with friends and their families. It's rather heatbreaking and they both will be missed so much. Everyone has learned to not take anything for granted.

    I wrote two quotes to express my feelings on this whole situation.

    Two boys; so full of life one day and in a moment that is all taken away. Sure we can go through the could haves and what ifs but it won't change anything. RIP boys. (c) justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx / iwishyouwouldhavecaughtmexx

    You never realize how much you rely on someone to just be there until they're actually gone. RIP boys. (c) justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx / iwishyouwouldhavecaughtmexx

    This is a hard time for all of us and I ask you keep Anthony Shane Larkin and John Vincent Mauro and their families in your prayers.

     
    ♥♥ Anthony Shane : May 6, 1994 - April 2, 2010. 15 years old.
      
    ♥♥ John Vincent : March 6, 1992 - April 2, 2010. 18 years old.

Sunday, 21 March 2010

  • aujourd'hui est demain 21 mars.

    today is Sunday, March 21.

    un.
    Don't break the trust of the girl with the trust issues.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    deux.
    You must crawl before you walk, fail before you succeed, and fall before you rise up.
    CREDIT: Brandon @ justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    trois.
    he was always a player, it just took me a while to figure out he didn't really deserve me.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    quatre.
    One day, you're going to miss me. You're going to realize all you could have had, if you had known how to treat a girl right. One day, you'll figure out all that you're missing, all that I've become. But it'll be too late, and by then I won't be coming back.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    cinq.
    I'm tired of you hurting me. I don't want to feel used or led to. I just want to know that you care and I can trust you. That you're my friend. But since I can't say you're any of them, I guess I'm saying I'm done.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    six.
    You're everything I want and need, you mean the world to me, and I just want you to be happy. No matter what, I'll be okay in the end as long as you'll still be my friend.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    sept.
    Sometimes I wish it were easier for me to just trust people, but then I think about how hard it is for people to keep a promise that's made to be broken.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    huit.
    Promises are just made to be broken, remember that next time he tells you he'll be there forever.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    neuf.
    What do you do after so long? I love you so much and it's been this way for almost nine months. I never should have let you go, never should have pushed you away. How was I supposed to know this would happen? How was I supposed to know I am in love with you but now you like her and things just aren't right anymore.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    dix.
    Is it so hard to believe we've come to this? A month ago I wouldn't have imagined not wanting to talk to you and now I'm ignoring you at all costs all because you were a dick.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    onze.
    Five years ago I would have never thought I'd be crying myself to sleep. Five years ago I wouldn't have dreamed I would already have a broken heart. Five years ago, I though I was going to be a happy teen. Five years ago I believed in miracles. Here I am lying in bed crying with my broken heart. I'm not happy and the only miracle I believe in right now is that maybe I can get through the night with a little bit of sleep, enough so I can go to school tomorrow with a fake smile on my face.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    douze.
    How am I supposed to feel? With him, it wasn't love, just incredibly blind infatuation. I knew in my heart I could move on after him. With you, now... you're different. This isn't the same thing. This is healthy. Good for me in a way, or at least it could be. If only you knew that I really love you even though you have a girlfriend.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    treize.
    I miss everything we had and everything we were, and being friends is acceptable even though I want so much more.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    well its so like me to have a thirteen quote update. it is my favorite number.
    hmm. favorite quote in this update would have to be six and thirteen, which are both written about the same amazing guy I am sad to call my ex and proud to call my best friend in the world.

Thursday, 11 March 2010

  • Je ne me sens pas bien.

    "I do not feel well."

    un.
    you apologize; i hear the two simple words come out of your mouth, "i'm sorry." this is just the same story i've heard countless times, two words that are said with a purpose, but only mean something if both people believe whole-heartedly. so, no, i don't accept your apology because you don't really mean the two simple words you just said.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    deux.
    today, you asked me if i was alright, and of course i said "i'm fine... why?" you told me something didn't feel right. the truth is something is on my mind, nothing horrible, but its something and i'm just waiting for the right moment to talk to you about it.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    trois.
    boyy, you have stunning green eyes, a smile that can cheer me up no matter what, and a laught i can't help but love. i just want to know whats going to happen to us in the end, when you move away for college and i have two more years left of school.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    quatre.
    girl: if he's worried about something, he's hiding it from me.
    friend: he definitely isn't hiding anything and its really upsetting him, which isn't a good thing. but he's happy around you, which is a good thing.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    cinq.
    Girl, don't expect this to last forever. To him, the definition of "forever" is "only until he finds someone better."
     © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    six.
    i still think about us, but i have him and you have her, so i guess thats just what will have to be.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    sept.
    shh, girl. i know how you feel. its just complicated.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    huit.
    Work together, play together. One group, one team: Concert Band ♥
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    neuf.
    i'm tired of being treated like crap. i don't want to feel like i don't matter to you, i'm just here for your pleasure. if you don't really want me, i'll leave you alone, no matter how much it hurts.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    dix.
    i know you have a different definition of forever than i do, but before forever is over, just give me one more day.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    onze.
    i've finally realized i didn't try to be single for a year just to be single. i tried to learn to be independent, and it didn't work.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    douze.
    if only i could talk to you. if only you knew how i really feel. if only i knew you would understand. if only, if only.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    treize.
    how do you do it? i'm dating you, but i like him too.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    quatorze.
     i don't know whats wrong with me. i like him, but he's got a girlfriend and i've got a boyfriend. this is all so different to me.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    quinze.
    after so long, you stop trying to get over him, to get rid of the feelings. if you feel that way you should just let it be.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

Wednesday, 03 March 2010

  • Quotes from songs I love.

    Un.
    Late one night by the harvest moon, Jacob climbed a ladder up to Rachel's room. He knew his place, it was right beside her.
    -Jacob's Ladder, Mark Wills

    Deux.
    How do I live without you? I want to know. How do I breathe without you? If you ever go. How do I ever, ever survive? How do I, how do I, oh, how do I live?
    -How do I live, LeAnn Rimes

    Trois.
     Oh, I hear the weather's nice in California. And just in case you're wondering about me. From now on I won't be in Carolina. Your little girl is off, your little girl is off, your little girl is off to Tennessee.
    -I Wonder, Kellie Pickler

    Quatre.
    Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
    -Need You Now, Lady Antebellum

    Cinq.
    Remember when, I was young and so were you and time stood still, and love was all we knew.
    -Remember When, Alan Jackson

    Six.
    I've never been this close to anyone or anything, I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams.
    -Amazed, Lonestar

    Sept.
    Little boy, six years old, a little too used to being alone. Another new mom and dad, another school, another house that'll never be home.
    -Temporary Home, Carrie Underwood

    Huit.
    I'm the sunshine in your hair. I'm the shadow on the ground. I'm the whisper in the wind. I'm your imaginary friend.
    -I'm Already There, Lonestar.

    Neuf.
    And with a broken wing she still sings, she keeps an eye on the sky.
    -Broken Wing, Martina McBride

    Dix.
    Dear Mom, was the way it started. I miss you so much, it went on Mom, I didn't know that I loved you so but I'll prove it when this war is won.
    -Soldier's Last Letter, Ernest Tubb

    Onze.
    God bless my mom and my dad, and my new friend Alyssa, I know she needs it bad.
    -Alyssa Lies, Jason Michael Carroll

    Douze.
    Look at the two of you dancing that way. Lost in the moment, and each others' face. So much in love you're alone in this place like there's nobody else in the world.
    -I Loved Her First, Heartland

    Treize.
    I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall. And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call. It's just another call from home, and you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying.
    -Stay, Sugarland

Tuesday, 02 March 2010

  • Je n'aime pas mardi tres bien.

    (I don't like Tuesday very well.)

    un.
    all i want is for you to take me away, to somewhere you think i'll love. if that place doesn't work, we can always try again.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    deux.
    love is about facing your biggest fears so tell the truth and let your emotions show. if he loves you he'll want to know anyway.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    trois.
    i play the flute and because of that i'm automatically more awesomely amazing than you.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    quatre.
    when i see you smile it makes me happy, when i hear your laugh i can't help but listen, and when i feel your touch it just makes me melt.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    cinq.
    everything you ever wanted stops being a dream when it isn't worth fighting for anymore.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    six.
    one simple word is just one pitiful word until you begin to mean what you're actually saying.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    sept.
    i don't understand. i'm stuck underwater, drowning in confusion and you're the only one who can save me.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    huit.
    even if i knew how this was going to end, i don't think i'd want to change anything.
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    neuf.
    i want you to be my fairytale ending. can you try for me?
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    dix.
    she said "every girl deserves a guy who'll treat them like a princess and you can do so much better, so why do you keep going back to him?" i told her "the only thing that keeps me holding on is the fact he flirts with me every day, and i'm hoping one day he'll see that our attraction is more than just friendly."
    © justanotherbeautifuldisasterxx

    ten quote update:)
    trying to start to update more frequently because i've been writing enough quotes to manage regular updates.
    comments make me smile.
    with love, Emily.